That Moment When You Know It’s Time

So it happened a few weeks ago, I was walking up the big staircase at work (my work area is on the 2nd floor and there is no elevator) and it happened.  It was that motivation I needed to begin working out and losing weight.  I can honestly say I had that almost 7 years ago when I was able to lose 35 pounds but even trying to repeat that moment wasn’t enough to encourage me to lose weight.

I was walking up the steps and I could feel the bulge of my stomach down between my thighs on this particular day and that was it, I was done, I knew my journey of health was finally going to happen once again.

That was a little over 2 weeks ago.  I haven’t lost tons of pounds. I’ve lost 3.  But it’s better than gaining and I’ve been plagued with a ton of migraines so jumping around in the evening and provoking more headaches hasn’t exactly been on my list of things I want to do. But I have exercised and I’ve done well in staying within my calorie range.  I’m sure I can do better, but sometimes it’s easier to start off slow and work your way up to bigger milestones.

It’s all about believing in myself.  I’ve not stopped eating anything in particular, just tracking my food and trying to exercise when I am able.  I’ve done the 20 minute Zumba basic exercise and some Leslie Sansone “Walk It Off in 30 Days”.


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I truly believe that weight loss is 99% mental and 1% physical.  It’s all about re-training yourself to eat better so you can feel better.  It doesn’t happen overnight and there are moments when you truly have to talk yourself into not indulging on your vices.

If you want to follow me on my weight loss journey I’m BeckyS222 on Sparkpeople, I would love to connect!


It’s Really Time for a Change

When you look up the definition of the word “health”, Google claims it is the state of being free from illness or injury, a person’s mental or physical condition.

It’s funny how when one thinks of weight loss, we often state we are getting healthy. I suppose, in reality, we have given being overweight a stigma of being unwell.  Which is sad as there are many people who are most likely both healthy and obese (you really can be both).

Sadly, I don’t think I am one of those people.  At least not at the moment.

For the past several weeks my foot has ailed me.  Now let me start out saying I have the world’s worse feet (I use to think ugliest too, but then I googled what a particular foot problem looked like, and realized my feet really aren’t that bad – or at least they could be a lot worse).  Anyhow, I digress, I have what I think might be plantar’s fasciitis.  I’m down to just heel pain again (for a bit I had my arch hurting, my ankles hurting – you see I sprained both ankles about 10 years ago and it takes very little for them to flare up at times – and one of the reasons that I think this could have happened is because of my weight.

I’m over 200 pounds and I need to lose weight.  Sadly, having ailing feet doesn’t help me at all with the whole “I need to lose weight” part of my life.  Not that I have actually been overwhelmingly motivated to do anything.

Tomorrow I am going to begin working on being a healthier me.  I have to do something because I’m tired of feeling like utter crap all the time.  I can’t help but think I know if I ate better and exercised more and lose some of this excess weight that I would truly feel better.

It’s all about finding the will power.

How do you find the strength to make it through the day?

Here is my before picture – not exactly a full blown here is me in all my glory picture – but it’s better than nothing – especially when I’m already ready for bed.  I’ll do a full-length picture tomorrow when I give my first update.


#babysteps  #icandothis  #willpower


Everything Starts with a Day 1


Today begins my 100 days of exercise.  My scale keeps going in the opposite direction and in order to lose the weight I need to lose and to feel better. But this morning I was 1 tiny pound from a big number… and I refuse to hit that number (again).

So I need to find healthier breakfasts so I can start the day off right.  I had a Lean Cuisine Sesame Chicken for lunch and then hubby made homemade chicken nuggets for dinner with a side of canned peas.

I did a 10 minutes of a DVD I won from Sparkpeople… I did the Walk It Out workout and on a day when I drove home and the temperature was 95 degrees, it was plenty to get me going.

Baby steps… but I am going to build on this each day.

If you want to follow along with me on my username is BeckyS222.  Here is to our healthy progress!

Wednesday = Accountability


So today I’m taking a huge leap… I’m confessing my weight to the world.  I’m going to state the digit out there for all the world to know (gulp!) and try (BIG try) to lose weight and share what works and what doesn’t with all of you.

Now I am fortunate that my hubby’s work allows us to join a gym… but with his umpiring as a second job to pay for said truck that has overextended us (see this past Monday’s post) it doesn’t give me a lot of time to go and work out (the children need someone home still).  So when I begin exercising, it will be a combination of stuff I can do at home along with classes I can join along with there.

So here it is… the big number… which is big, but I know it could be worse.  I weigh, according to the scale in my bathroom…. 195.6 pounds.  Wow, look at that… I’m still standing.  The world hasn’t come crashing down around me.

Then again, I haven’t hit the magic “Publish” button yet either.

Last night I was able to get the last of the ice cream out of my house and today I went ahead and allowed myself my final Dr. Pepper Polar Pop (purchased with quarters found around the house).  Tomorrow I will do better…. a return to eggs, oatmeal, and some other kind of nutritious breakfast I need to find to give me variety.

Is there anything good you like to eat for breakfast when you are trying to lose weight?  What about lunch – I’m always up for new ideas and would appreciate anything you can share.

And hopefully blogging every day as I try to do this won’t freak anyone out… maybe if I report EVERYTHING I do I won’t be as horrible at falling off the wagon.  So along with the above weight – here are my measurements:

  • Arms – 13″
  • Hips – 44″
  • Thighs – 27-3/4″
  • Waist – 39-1/2″

The last one always hurts – I never had a tummy until I had my kids.  Have always been a hip and thigh girl though – just like my Grandma!

I will also keep accountable at – if you use the website, let me know in the comments below – we can friend each other and cheer ourselves towards our goals!

Don’t forget – if you have any nutritious breakfast or lunch ideas that pass picky people’s taste testing – let me know!  I get bored very easy (which is why I have Dr. Pepper and Chex Mix for breakfast so often).

I can do this!!!!!

My before picture:


I found the following quote in a search – and I know it’s the ultimate taboo to use other people’s art – but I like the butterflies and I always try to credit and link what I borrow from others (so maybe I won’t get in as much trouble).  So here is this quote – I thought it was perfect for myself today, it’s from the website Great Minds Think Fit:


Hopefully today is the first of many lucky days!


Weigh-In Wednesday, Week 1


So, how many of you had losing weight, eating healthy, or something else along those lines as one of your New Year’s Resolutions?

Now that we are almost 2 weeks into the new year, who has done well?

I have not.  I have lost… a total of 1.6 pounds.  Hardly what my goal was for the year.  So I am turning to my peers to go on this journey with me.  You will help be my accountability.

So now I struggle… do I just say how much I need to lose or do I really put the big number out there?  It’s really not so bad.  I know people who have far more weight to lose than I.  At this point in time I want to lose 58.4 pounds.  A very do-able number, but at the same time finding the time and correct food to eat is difficult.  Why do fruits and veggies cost so much?  Why does my work not have a kitchen where I could go to cut up food in the middle of the day so my desk doesn’t become an icky sticky mess?

These are just one of many ways I can talk myself out of eating healthy.

Carbs are my weakness.  Dr. Pepper too…. I had done so well not drinking pop and then suddenly last Friday I had a massive migraine.  It hurt to turn my head because as soon as I did, my head would throb… ba-boom, ba-boom, ba-boom.

So on my lunch I weakened and went to the gas station and got my first Dr. Pepper of the year.  A whopping 69 cent Polar Pop from the Circle K.  Topped off with my Bed Buddy (one of those awesome t-shirt cylinders with rice inside to it’s nice moist heat on ones neck and shoulders – my first one just died and I’d had it over 20 years, it was wore out as it began getting holes in it, one of the greatest inventions ever) by 2:30 all was right with the world.


Then of course hubby bought 2 liters for me and it is an addiction for me… if it is in the house, I will drink it.

So today is the first of many Weigh In Wednesdays.  Feel free to comment below with how much weight you want to lose, and what you are doing to make it happen.

I did join my local gym (I had joined last year too).  Now I just need to figure out how I am going to exercise without it being my whole life (as was the case last year).  Surely there is some sort of balance. I will find it.


The struggle is real and know you aren’t alone!  And I can’t afford to spend money to join two letters at the end of the alphabet that aid people in losing weight, and some of the other weight loss websites just bore me after using them so long… it’s too hard inputting all the food….

Oh my gosh – my laziness is showing!  But seriously, sometimes entering all the ingredients and guestimating how much of this was in your tuna noodle casserole just becomes annoying.  Am I alone here?

Let’s help each other be accountable!  Starting now!

Making Mountains Out of Molehills

According to the Merriam Webster dictionary, stress is defined as

a state of mental tension and worry caused by problems in your life, work, etc.

I have learned in the past few weeks that I am very stressed.  Migraines I’ve suffered with for years aren’t really migraines, but tension headaches, caused by stressed.

Though when this diagnosis was made I was having a great deal of difficulty with both my children.  Boy child was being a boy on the school bus, girl child was doing her very best to sabotage her grades, specifically math and came close to getting her first official F on her report card.  This is very unlike my little honor roll student from elementary school.  We have learned that Middle School is tougher than it looks. I know it would be much easier if she just did her homework (did I fail to mention she hadn’t turned in 6 homework assignments?).

All of this is happening while I am going to my doctor’s for the very first visit.  The initial prognosis – high blood pressure, though according to my mom it’s not that high. I still have a ways to go to catch up with her.

What else did the doctor have to say?  I’m obese. Yes, he was going by that darn BMI scale I have referred to in the past, and it’s not like it wasn’t anything I didn’t already know, but it always sounds so much worse coming out of the mouth of a stranger.

So after having a headache daily for 2 weeks, I opted to try to figure out what is causing me stress in order to avoid my tension headaches.  This is so much easier said than done.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I want to control my children, I can’t.  I cannot make girl-child bring home her homework, complete it and turn it in.  Apparently she loses work completed in class even (see, she is truly special).  I can’t make my son be silent on the school bus in a hope he doesn’t say anything he hears the other boys say even though he may not know what it even means, and get in trouble and be allowed to ride the bus (yes, Mom had to drive him and pick him up at school for an entire week).

I’ve resolved that my one co-worker is just not a nice person and I just have to deal with it and move on. The hard part with this is that when I become angry, I cry.  I guess it makes me look weak but I am just trying to contain my own anger so I don’t say or so something that I shouldn’t. The tension in the office I work in is so thick you could cut it with a knife. And most people think it is from someone in particular in the room, but it’s not, it’s all the seemingly “nice” person to everyone in the company but me.  I also think this has me on edge simply because I’ve never really had someone dislike me before.  It’s a whole new world for me.

So lots of changes in store for me… I get to watch what I eat (more than just from the plate into my mouth) and exercise regularly (like the doctor prefers 1 hour a day for a minimum of 5 days a week – I’m getting 4 days at 50 minutes done presently and have lost almost 5 pounds in 2.5 weeks). I need to try to eliminate excess stress from my life,  and to be at peace with the things in life I cannot change.

Wish me luck.

As for what I’m thankful for on this the second day of November…. I’m thankful for the friends I do have that make me smile even when they have no idea just how much it means at a specific moment.

Weight Loss Wednesday – Part 1

So… today I am starting out my day as I do many others.  I’ve gotten up, I’ve gotten the children out the door (boy child, girl child and man child – aka hubby) finished getting myself together and will eat some oatmeal for breakfast. Quick oats, the semi-real stuff. All will be good once I get to work and then about 11:30 it hits… hunger.

I do what all the wise “health experts” and “exercise gurus” say and begin drinking water. Often when we are hungry we are really just thirsty. I am thinking at these moments, I am just hungry as my stomach is telling me.

At 1 o’clock my lunch time arrives and I get to head home…and that’s where the bad thing happens. I eat, and eat and eat and eat.  I eat everything I see because by that time I am STARVED.

I have stuff in my house I’m not really wanting to eat (tempting foods) because my kids take their lunch to school (my daughter everyday as she is super picky, my son is about 50/50), and don’t feel they should have to go without just being I am trying to lose weight. I guess you could say my willpower SUCKS. Top it off with my own pickiness of foods, and well, it’s just difficult being me trying to lose weight.

I probably sound like a lot of people out there.  So I’m going to use my blog to stay accountable.  I was debating about putting it all out there and stating my weight for all the world to see… but I am not sure if I feel that courageous today (or any day) but we’ll see.

But today is another starting day for me and this journey. I need to suck it up and get focused because after I have my blowout binge at lunch…I feel like utter crap the rest of the day. And I hate that feeling.

So today I’m trying to eat better. I am eating my oatmeal as I type – a 1/4 cup of dry oatmeal cooked with 1/2 cup of water and 1 tbsp. of brown sugar. Seeing as most fruits I like require cutting… I’ll just take a string cheese with me to work for a snack when I get hungry to tied me over to when I get home for lunch.

Wish me luck – I may do a part 2 later today for an update on my success (yay!) or failure (boo).

I can do this…

If you are a picky eater (translated – you like few fruits and vegetables) and you have tips for me… please share!

Weight Loss – July 18 Edition


So are you like me and as soon as I think “I am going to try to lose weight” your taste buds suddenly crave every horrible food for your body?  Like Dr. Pepper, ice cream, Doritos… the list could go on forever. This is me every time I want to lose weight. But I am hoping that if I just go with journaling this on a public scale that maybe, just maybe, I’ll stick with it more.  I mean,writing this out in such a public forum will make me more accountable, right?

So now that we are all in agreement, today I’m making a grocery list and hopefully giving the world of clean eating a try.  Part of my problem is that I dislike healthy foods and I’m pretty sure I eat way too many processed foods… so I’m going to take the plunge and attempt to eat clean this weekend.

Why this weekend?  Because it’s 2 days, hopefully I can accomplish a goal in 2 days. And come Monday morning if I feel better – then maybe I can add another day and so on.  I read something earlier today about having small goals.. well I can’t get any smaller and more defined than a weekend (what am I saying… I could just go with today).

If anyone out there has any tips for me – PLEASE SHARE! I would love to hear how others cope and battle such a personal journey.  Weight loss is such a funny thing – what works for one person doesn’t necessarily work for another. We all gained the weight for different reasons and sadly it all comes off different too.

Oh and if you want to share your reasons for losing weight and what motivates you – I’d love to hear it.  I will be honest… of course I want to lose weight so I can be healthy and stick around longer for my kids – secondly, and this is the shallow reason, we are apparently going on a weekend camping trip 2 months from today and face it, I would prefer to look and feel better to this group of people than with the flabby thighs I currently have.  They are people I know but are more or less my husbands friends.  See, shallow.

That’s all for today – as my friend would say (and Michael Damien too) – Rock On!